A friend wrote this, she’s awesome, she’s chasing God where ever that leads.
I was going to include it in another post.
It deserves to stand alone.
It’s beautifully written, a beautiful response to being overwhelmed, a beautiful challenge to safe prayers.
morning we prayed for Pakistan
i said a few things to God,
things a thought i needed to say…
i used words and phrases like love. peace. dear Lord.
then i realized. i dont know how to pray. i dont know how to pray for something that is SO much bigger than myself. that doesnt make sense in my mind.
i dont know what it feels like to watch my daughter being swept away in a flood
i dont know
and so i asked the Holy Spirit
how to pray for this. what it meant to pray for this
because our rehearsed safe prayers
the ones that roll of our lips
the ones without the reality of the pain
they are not enough for
the woman who is to weak
to break down and scream for her families sake.
i felt a part of my heart break
and the tears roll in silence
as He broke me. just slightly. but enough to know. that pain could break me completely.
but He is and will be. forever.
i need to learn more how to pray.
In the face of things so overwhelming, of problems larger than me, where I feel I can be of little change & significance…
I need more than rehearsed safe prayers, I need more than a rehearsed safe life…
I need to learn how to pray.
I need to learn more how to live.