Pills, Coffee & Heresy

This is a collection of the 1st three posts from late 2010. I hope they give you better insight into what this blog is about.



 “After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes”.

– Morpheus


Red pill. Blue Pill.

Choice, Invitation.


This is the dilemma I found myself in….  while playing a Matrix game on xbox.

I chose the Blue pill just to see what would happen.

Game over. Roll credits. Shortest game I’ve ever played.



Choice & invitation, some of you may be here out of curiosity because you know me, once the talk of spirituality, God & hugging trees starts you may begin to have serious questions about my sanity & find yourself reaching for that Blue pill never to return.

No hard feelings, this blog isn’t for everyone…

If it makes you feel any better, once we get a few posts in some of my christian friends will be having the same thoughts :)



The rabbit hole in question is exploring faith, beliefs, spirituality, and in particular, how that shapes us and our interactions with the world.

I don’t have all the answers… I’m no guru.

Or saint for that matter.

And  I’m certainly no Morpheu, I can’t show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

If anything I’ve stumbled into the rabbit hole & have been wandering around since.

So will you wander with me?


And what we do with our faith & beliefs, what action we take… well that’s better discussed after some coffee.


Heart Coffee Frame Made Of Coffee Beans


“There’s two kinds of people in this world, when you boil it all down. You got your Talkers and your Doers. Most people are just Talkers, all they got is talk. But when it’s all said and done… it’s the Doers who change this world, and when they do that, they change us. And that’s why we never forget them. So which one are you? Do you just talk about it? Or do you stand up and do something about it? Because believe you me, all the rest of it is just coffee house bullsh!t.”
– Roco, Boondock Saints II.


I love coffee cake, coffee ice cream, coffee chocolate, coffee milk shakes, the smell of coffee beans, of coffee peculating. Yet for some reason I don’t like a hot coffee, I can count on my hand the number of times a year I have a coffee.

And I can’t stand bitter coffee.


If ‘Pills’ was an invitation to explore faith, God & beliefs, then ‘Coffee’ is what we do with it, what this blog is or isn’t about.


Are you a Talker or a Doer?

I like to talk, but I love to listen more, to people share their beliefs & how it affects their lives, I love to hear about what fires people up & gives them a hunger for life.

I hope that this blog can be a place to facilitate some great discussion.

I hope this blog facilitates more than great discussion, but leads to some doing. Because at the end of the day I can “believe” in the Easter Bunny, but if it has no impact on how I live my life what’s the point? I can believe in a God who loves the poor, yet if I don’t go out of my way to walk with the poor then what’s the point?


If a value or belief doesn’t lead to action, do I truly Believe it?

Or do I just like the concept.


I hope this blog doesn’t facilitate Bitter Coffee.

Bitter Coffee is generally made by people who are dissatisfied with church, sometimes they meet with like minded people over coffee, sometimes that becomes their new church, sometimes all this new church becomes is dissatisfied people sitting around drinking coffee with an air of spiritual-elitists-arrogance, getting bitter… soo bitter that it permeates the coffee.

Let me just make this clear, I’m all for house churches/organic church,

I have nothing against people being dissatisfied with church, I’m one of them. I’m dissatisfied with church, yet I love the Church & I can’t stand Bitter Coffee.


I believe that anything can be questioned & no question is off limits. There are practices and beliefs that are facilitated within church/Christianity which just make me cringe, that I believe don’t have any place in following Jesus, but have become so ingrained in Christian culture.

My criticism/questioning of them is not to make me feel like a better person or because I think I’m a better person, but to push for change, change in me and the world around.

It’s not because I don’t care about the state of Christianity, but because I do.


In the words of Roco, I don’t have time for bitter coffee house bullsh!t,

I do have time to be a Doer.


Detail closeup zoom God is love scripture in bible verse



I’m trying to find my way & what it all means…

so sooner or later I’ll say something heretical, unintentionally or otherwise   ;)

Sooner or later I’ll say something that will annoy, upset, anger or piss you off.

Judging by one very funny phone call… that has happened (in a way it was a very sad phone call).

Which I guess I was expecting eventually… not the phone call, that was surprising… but that i’d upset someone.

Instead of dismissing what I say, I hope you can be big enough to interact with it. Whether I agree or disagree with what you say, I’ll still respect you for saying it.

So I’ll call it how I see it, feel free to call me out.

I’d like to leave you with the words of one of the 20th century’s greatest theologians, social activists & commentators,


 “If I upset you,

don’t stress,

never forget,

that God hasn’t finished with me yet”.

– Tupac Shakur

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