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Enter the Void – the year that was

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I believe in world peace.

I believe that all men are created equal.

I believe in the Force, America, freedom, the Tooth Fairy, a bearded man in the sky, Jesus Christ.


Beliefs are cool but in the words of Tyrion Lannister,

“words are wind.”


They say faith without works is dead, and I’ve often felt that to believe something you need to be living it. Otherwise you just like the idea.

But what happens if that “living it” takes over. What if that action becomes the only sign of faith, does it just become empty ritual… and how can you tell?

How can you tell when you’re so caught up in the doing that you’ve stopped being.

When you’re more Martha than Mary.

How can you tell when the things you do sneakily become  the relationship you have, instead of overflowing from it. And does the fact that I even have to ask a sign things aren’t right?


What seems like an eternity ago I embarked on some travels, part discovery, part losing things along the way, part chasing dreams & passions. A journey which saw me hanging out with the houseless in Hawaii, and sharing tears in Palestine.

A journey which saw me stop writing. A little bit awkward if you keep a blog.

And in amongst the travel weariness, shameless self promoting selfies, new experience buzz, innocence lost insight, humanity rediscovered, crisis uncovered, laughter, tears, solitude and connection, was an invitation to enter the void.


I would summerise my faith journey this year as an invitation to enter the void. The laying down of things near and dear to me, let the chips fall where they may.

I started writing this post early 2014. I’ll finish it in 2015. Apart from a couple of YouTube videos, quotes & previously unpublished poems, I only wrote one post last year. And while very little of what I write sees the light of day I pretty much wrote nothing of anything.

I didn’t read much either, I made no videos, I didn’t volunteer, I didn’t go to church.

In fact I lost all desire to do any of these things, which was a little bit strange.

Concerning even, if I thought to hard enough about it.



Yet I felt strangely at peace with this invitation to emptiness, as if it were ok to be on this journey. Some how comfortable with the uncomfortable, or at least at peace with the process… whatever that might be.

Like rehabbing an injury, things aren’t right but one day will be.

Last year I attended a friends exhibition and was really moved buy the powerful stories and imagery, so much so that I bailed early, it made me think about my own travels, the people I’d encountered and their messed up situations. Maybe 2014 was the year I chose to shut down a bit instead of being overwhelmed by the worlds problems and my inability change things.

As 2015 begins I find a rekindled energy for some of my passions, a desire to read, to write, to create. I’m looking forward to finding and committing to a faith community, but that may depend on where I end up living. Somethings I don’t think I’ll ever resume, their time has past and I’m happy to let them go.


Love & Breathe. Here’s to doing coming from being.



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Let the adventures begin!

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The Lone Traveler

I’m about to hop on a plane with a half-crazed plan, a bunch of tickets, a GoPro, $100 in my pocket & a whole bunch of the unknown.

I’ll be gone 2 months & will visit half a dozen countries. Some places I’ll definitely be at, some I’m hoping to get to, some I have no idea how I’m getting there, where I’m staying or how I’ll pay for it…

this will be a grand adventure of epic proportions or a cautionary tale.


Here’s a list of places I’m going to be (bracketed are places I’m hoping to get to), in rough sequential order. I’m already catching up with a couple of readers for coffee, so hit me up if I’m in your area

Honolulu, Hawaii

(Kauai, Hawaii)

San Fransisco


Las Vegas

Springfield, M.O

New Orleans

Tel Aviv









New York



A little over a year ago I decided I wanted to visit Palestine for 4 weeks over my summer holidays (Christmas in NZ), I guess that’s what set the wheels in motion. Turns out though, that flying to Tel Aviv from my little island country is ridiculously expensive.

So I started looking at alternative ways of getting there, and by alternative I mean Every possible combination of dates & places… long story short, I’m flying to a bunch of places for a little more than the original cost, albeit on some airlines that don’t appear to even have logos – there’s a good chance I end up in the back of a single prop full of crates of chickens.

Oh & this trip has ballooned from 4 weeks to 2 months.

So what do I plan on doing?

Well some of the trip I’ll be a traveler, some a tourist (yes, there is a difference), some a photographer, artist, filmmaker (more on that to come).

I’ll be writing this blog when I can, planes, airports & buses.


I’m chasing dreams & sunsets, welcome to the journey.

See you in Hawaii


news: new menus & a pic

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A couple of new menus added for your reading pleasure.

poetic – Poetry. Spoken Word. Creative Writing.

adventures – travels, projects, missions & pilgrimages.


I’m pretty excited, I’ve just booked some tickets for the end of the year & will be heading to the Middle East, America & Japan among other places, stay tuned.


Update: I’ve finally added a picture of me to the author page, it’s only taken 3 years 🙂


news: africa & updates

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It’s been a while…

I’ve just got back from a month in Uganda, so I’m looking forward to publishing a couple of posts I’ve had waiting, then sharing my time in Uganda with you, things I’ve seen & lessons learnt.


Big thanks to those who’ve enquired about my well-being during my absence, it’s nice to feel a little love 🙂

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news: trips & updates

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uganda mapSome really exciting news… midway through the year I will be heading to Uganda & Southern Sudan for a little under a month with 20+ others, there will be lots of driving, avoiding mosquitoes, searching for clean drinking water, visits to orphanages & victims of war – land mines, child soldiers – churches, & the usual Tear Fund-aid agency stuff as well as some space to adventure a little & to take some risks.


It’s almost become cliché to say

I will learn more from them, than they from me

But I’m under no illusions that this will not be the case, after all what can I offer? I’m no builder, no engineer, no war trauma psych, no doctor, no pastor, no economics micro enterprise guru…

& that’s one of the reason I decided to go.

Too often it’s easy to rely on my own skill set, knowledge & giftings. All I have to offer is this, to love everyone I meet & a willingness to take risks.

I expect to be stretched, to be totally out of my comfort zone…. I can’t wait 🙂




and in completely lesser news… site update: I’ve done away with “Blogroll” & instead have “Blogosphere“, which I will use to share posts & articles created by others that I’ve stumbled on, stuff that really “pops” for me, the best of the best as it were.


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2 years on: inside the numbers


I’ve been informed my blog theme isn’t “click” friendly, meaning you can read posts without having to click your mouse lots.

Which is good for you, apparently not so for me.

You see, I’m informed that lots of “clicks” are a good thing, that there is a man (or woman) who counts all the clicks, categorizes & compiles them, to what end I’m unsure. I think I need a certain amount to level up or achieve global blogging dominance.

Here’s a look inside the numbers of the last year of blogging & life.


1) One is for Nike & Mike, say it ain’t over. The most read post over the last year. One is for December my best month, you barely beat out October.

One is for the first year I haven’t been involved in youth leadership for a while. It’s been incredibly freeing & life-giving

2) Two is for 2 years, happy 2nd birthday blog. Two is the amount of Stephen King books I’ve attempted to read.

3) Three is for funerals unexpected. I’ve been to more this year than the rest of my life. Death has a way of throwing things into perspective.


52) Fifty-two is for the only number from the counted clicks which caught my attention. People from some 52 different countries have visited this blog in the past year, some places I’ve never heard of.

That is humbling.

Perhaps the person who counts the clicks lives in one of those countries, my guess is its Moldova.

25) twenty-five is for “gladiator pills”. The amount of times that search term has led someone to this blog. It’s a sex enhancement pill. I guess if you’re counting clicks on a non-click friendly blog you have to find something to pass the time.


0) Zero is for 0%, the amount “clicks” motivate me. Zero is for the number of Stephen King books I’ve finished reading. In his book On Writing, Stephen says he writes for an ideal reader, that his ideal reader is his wife. My ideal reader isn’t my wife. Zero – my number of wives.

I guess my ideal reader, is me. Well maybe different versions of me, I write to the old me,  5 years ago me, 10 years ago me, know-it-all-me, fundamentalist-me, pastors kid me, dropped out of church me, searching me, knowing the rules but not Gods heart me…

or the me I see in others, the church raised christian schooled middle-class westerner with Sunday school smarts & clichéd answers, who knows about God without knowing, who can quote Jesus without ever following.


x) Unknown number is for the amount of people you influence each day, each week, each year, the amount of people you shine a little light on & share a little love with.

Where does your light shine?


Thanks for another year, thanks for reading, for the follows, comments & emails.

Love God, love people, follow Jesus.




news: earthquakes, churches, reflection & hope

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I’ve had the privilege of being involved with a wonderfully talented group of people in planning & launching a new church service. It’s been almost a couple of years since our City church was damaged beyond repair in the Christchurch earthquakes, here are some reflections & hopes going forward.


We have been sharing a church building with a Baptist church, it’s a thing of beauty. A Baptist & Vineyard church sharing facilities & sometimes services. Long may it last, I wish this would happen more.


Recently I was told that only two churches were remaining in the CBD as part of the rebuild plan, the rest will have to find new buildings elsewhere.  And while I share a sense of sadness for those who have been in the city for decades, I can’t help but feel a little excited.

Maybe we were guilty of hiding behind closed doors, of letting our buildings do the talking for us…

I’m excited for the possibilities & what new things may come, as we wrestle with what it means for the Church to have a presence in the city.


Real Church rarely happens in church. While I love that our new service is at CPIT, it will take more than location to change a culture which increasingly is content with a couple of hours on a Sunday morning being the extent of my faith.

My hope is that this service will be both a celebration of the week been & equipping, encouraging for the week to come.

That it wouldn’t be “Church”.

That it would be a service that facilitates Church happening the rest of the week.



And while I’m only a small part, it’s still a chance to get my grubby little hands in the muck & hopefully leave some fingerprints on it. Where are you leaving your fingerprints?






ps. I’ve also added “the author” page, so that you can know more about me… to put me in a box & dismiss my point of view 😉

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iPhone challenge – update

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A long-awaited update 🙂

I love hearing & reading stories of how others are living & breathing the gospel in unique, challenging & creative ways, I struggle sometimes to talk about what this looks like in my life.  Partly it’s because  I know my own heart & what’s really there, or maybe it’s self-consciousness, false modesty, fear of failure or my own ego… I’m not entirely sure.  I do know that this isn’t meant to be about me, you won’t see the launch of  “*insert name-Ministries” here… you won’t even find my name.

It’s been a while since my iPhone challenge. I was able to in a tiny way help some chase their dreams and some random strangers, the highlight for me was breakfast with a homeless man. While I’m sure a feed and conversation did more for me than him and won’t alter his long-term prospects, it has to be better than turning a blind eye.

What I learnt most was this, if I consciously put aside some money with the goal of blessing/helping someone then it’s pretty much impossible for me not to be looking for opportunities to do so.

Eventually my phone did die and I did eventually go the smart phone route, I opted for an older model windows phone on clearance, fraction of the price, no plan. I guess looking back, this was my first intentional downsize.